Tuesday, June 15, 2010
..Just Might be a Happy Birthday After all
Ok, its 1 am June 16th and I think I just caught the birthday bug.
So far I have been very pessimistic about my birthday, only because in recent years I have learnt the hard way that expectation=disappointments, so this year, I have none
I dont care if I get a cake, I dont care, if I get gifts, I'm blank
Before 'recent years' I didnt have expectations for my birthday, of course I got gifts from my parents, and a lil sm sm from uncles and stuff and it was kool please dont get me wrong, but something ALWAYS seems to go wrong on my birthday that ends up just upsetting me and the flicker of happiness vanishes.
Say, in Nigeria, it always rained, I'm serious, from the day i was born, to the day I was named, till when I left, it rained, and not ok its raining outside kinda rain, I mean there is no way I'm leaving my house for nothing kinda rain!
Then Canada, where do I begin, freeloaders? Competition?, like who has to compete with convocations?
How do you compete with that, EVERY year someone is planning a 'yippee look at me, i just graduated BBQ'
I further find it funny when people, try to hype me into feeling better, or accuse me of being pessimistic, when you get 3 unhappy birthdays in a row, Hola @ ur girl ok?!
It doesnt bother me, but I think I am entitled to one happy birthday.
I'm not asking for a lot am I?
But for some odd reason, laying on my bed right now, I feel a little glimmer, a little buzz, 'My Birthday IS coming up'
And one way or another, I will have fun
even if i lay on my bed and watch re-runs of my fav shows(which seems to be my plan right now), I will have fun!
But if could wish anything this birthday, and I have a truck load of wishes!, I'd wish to be happy.
Please feel free to share happy/ sad, weird, funny birthday experiences! :)